Table Mountain First Jump After accident VR 360

This was my first time jumping Table Mountain in South Africa after almost dying there 7 years earlier. I had impacted a flat granite ledge at over 120mph and some how didn’t die. I went through 6 surgeries, two skin grafts, two ACL reconstruction, 4 months of intravenous antibiotics to fight infections that threatened to take my leg away. The recovery took years. I came back to BASE jumping doing some of the most dangerous and complex flights of my life after. I thought I had gotten over the mental trauma that happened that day on Table Mountain. But for some reason when I went back to South Africa to jump the mountain again a fear welled up inside me I didn’t fully understand. As I stood their looking over the edge all I wanted to do was step back. I didn’t want to jump, every nerve ending in my body was rejecting the idea of doing this again. I began question my life choices and why I felt I needed to do this. It’s complicated and I actually ended up writing a book about it. To make a long